One Month Into Marriage

I found this message in my Gmail draft. I cannot recall the exact moment but I imagine I was typing this one quiet afternoon while waiting for my husband to come home from work. It was entitled just like this post's title. Here goes...

Dear self,

It is a little over a month now that you have become a missus and oh boy, how you love being married!

• Every action becomes more intentional and every decision becomes more meaningful. I should consider him in every action and decision I have to make. But it's not like oh-I-already-lost-my-freedom-because-I-need-to-consider-him-all-the-time thing. It is more like God-entrusted-this-person-to-me-so-I-need-to-be-mindful-of-his-welfare-in-the-best-way-possible kind of thing, which is a wonderful way of thinking about what partnership really is.
• Sense of belongingness. 
• Eating meals together.
• The amazing tiny things you discover about him.
• I have somebody to go home to.
• Being a homemaker. Nobody warned me about the joy that homemaking could bring. It is so fun and so far, my most favorite part of owning a place.

I wanted to read so much more! This is too few bullet points and they have not been elaborated. I imagine I had so much to say then just like I have so much to say right now that it's more than a year into marriage. BUT so little time. Uhhg. So many things about marriage that nobody told me about.

This is a personal reminder to write down thoughts and feelings more often so my future self will smile upon finding treasures like this. This current self is definitely smiling and touched by this wonderful gift of words by my past self. 

For now, may you find yourself smiling too, friends.